Failure is only in the eyes of the beholder

Thanks for stopping by, this blog is dedicated to everyday life.  The ups and downs of the world we live in, and the experiences that bring it all together.

Recently I had suffered a steep setback of proportion in my life.  I had been enrolled in the St. Clair County Community College nursing program.  My grades had been spot on all semester however, I failed the final and lost my chance to advance in the program.

I have to admit last night was a bit of shocker realizing I wasn’t moving on in goals to becoming a nurse.  I had found out the news as I was picking the kids up from school.  “D+”, in my lecture class which was 77%.  Still kind of in shock as I write this.  (You need an 80% or better to move on in the program)

Do not get me wrong, I am still pretty hit up with a lot of emotions and sad to say the least.  As we got home, I was trying to hide my emotions as the kids and I walked into the house.  “I kept asking myself, how am I going to explain this to my wife Jennifer”?  Jennifer is the rock of our relationship.  A solid beacon in the ocean of life that I hold onto, many times from drowning in my own entangled emotions.  As I started to get upset and tell her I was sorry, she stayed and gave me a hug.  Jennifer had sacrificed A LOT this semester taking care of the kids and so many other hosts of events in our lives.  Once again, she was there for me in some rough seas of life.  Thank you Jennifer and I love you very much!

Failure is a word I think many of us struggle with.  Earlier in my days I would have sworn the program off and not said two more words to its loss.  As you get older though, you have a different mind frame.  I think sometimes you get that wisdom, that little bit of common sense, that says, “you think your through, but someone else upstairs has plans for you.”

I’ll never forget words from an old friend named Vasil had told me.  “Kenny life is not fair, not at all; you are going to fail many times in life, and you will get knocked down, get up, and then fail again.” Vasil then would ask me, “what’s next?”  Those were words have lived with me for a long time.

So for today I’ll wrap this blog up with this.  “Whats next?” If you are going through similar struggles from different perspectives; what are you going to do? Well join me and we will smash one foot in front of the other and the emotions that go along with it on the daily grind.

I am good to look to the sky from guidance from him.  He shall tell me were to go.

I will try to keep this blog up daily as much as I can.  Please tell me your experiences, thoughts, and feelings.  These daily entries are meant to connect one of us to each other and bring a forward movement in life.  Everyday isn’t a great day, but its a day we have to live, so do your best.

In each of us there is the strength to fly, the love to support us, and the dream to make us try.  Author Unknown